WTF?

Cris and I just argued. When we're already ok...
Cris just requested a kiss if it's okay with me.
'Cos he wants to know something.
I don't know what's exactly in his mind.
I said with my pride "You know what? Your the only guy who kissed me."
I thought he will be happy to know that my lips are only for him
But then with my surprise, he doesn't freakin' know that we kissed!
Our lips met Feb 28, 2009. Although, it wasn't what you expect of lips to lips kind.
It's just a smack. Or whatever it is called. But one thing I'm sure is our lips met.
Isn't that a kiss to you Mr. Tedria?
Well for me it already is.
Now, I feel so ashamed that he didn't even know. :(
Well that time, I think he's a bit drunk. So I don't know what the hell happened to him
and not to remember and consider that!

Happy at the moment. ;)

Right now, the situation is still complicated.
We often fight. But just a little sweet talk, he gets me every time.
I'm really falling for him harder. So I hope we will last longer
Cos I'm really needing him. I want to be with him everyday. :))
Obsessed? Nah. I just simply love him.
My problem is he's not like before.
But when I asked him, his love for me didn't change a bit.
So yeah, I'll just trust him. And God.. for my love life.
Actually he's beginning to be sweet again. :D
That's why I feel so happy. :P
But how about his girl? Oh, I'll just entrust every thing to God.
I know he has a plan.
What is meant to be will happen right? ;)

The gift. :)

Finally my plan happened the way I want it to be.
Last night. April 26, the day before their monthsary
I have given my gift (A scrapbook, cd in a box filled with lots of candies.)
He said he really like it. He thought it's so touching, that he could almost cry.
Well, he should like it because I worked hard for that.
But the scrapbook is unfinished, and he's complaining.
Well it's because of him why it's unfinished!
He said while he's reading poems, he's listening to the songs I dedicate to him while eating candies.
Nice huh? Haha.
All I want now, is for him to realize that he loves me more than his girl now that it's their special day.
Because I already gave him a month to think about it.
Meaning I'm giving him a last chance to realize everything.
After this, if nothing still happens. Then goodbye!
At least I offered him a scrapbook where all my feelings were written.
That will serve as a remembrance.
I hope there is a good result after all this.
Because I don't just wanna leave everything behind also, just like that.
Because I learned to love him already. :(

No more!

I just have to give my gift to Cris and goodbye!
So that will serve as my goodbye gift.
It's better off this way. FRIENDS. :D
I will just smile because somehow he made me smile.
Thanks for the memories but...
Like they say, 'A wise girl leaves BEFORE she is being left.'
I can do this! YEAH!

Here we go again.

Today Cris supposed to get his gift.

But I don't know why he back out again.

And plus, he's not texting! Only in the morning.

Well, his monthsary with his girlfriend is near.

And I have a plan. What if I don't talk to him also in 1 week.

Like he did to me. But before that, I must first give my unfinished gift! :))

So yeah I just watched Dragonball Evolution today with Kuya Ta at Gateway.

It was fun. :D Hoping tomorrow will be a better day. :)

Cris is back.

So Cris is finally back.
But before that, I had several dreams about him.
Although I want to share them. Maybe next time will do.
I'm so happy. Dad just got home from East Timor and gave me a new Nokia 6600 slide. :D
So yes. I'm enjoying it! :))
Oh yea, I think I will meet up with Cris tomorrow because he want his gift already.
Just a short update for now. I will still put some add-ons to my gift.
Buhbye!

At last!

Last night I thought he would never talk to me again.

Until he went online and I was too.

He talked to me saying I was the one who forgot him and blah.

Saying I maybe find another guy to replace him.

Anyways, I told him to text me tomorrow.

Because my dad is coming and I have a brand new Nokia 6600 slide. :P

Haha. Told yah, he can't resist me. Joke!

Counting the days that pass me by...

So now, Cris and I cut all our communication.

It's sad. Because I never thought it would be this fast.

BUT! I am not really broken. It's okay. Really. :)

Everythings fine & normal. He's just a boy. ;)

And it's his loss anyway, not mine.

So I start to think of Kevin again.

I only experienced true break down with Kevin.

Yep, there might be no chance for us to be together again.

But you'll never know. It's okay if we don't see each other very often.

My love won't be ereased though. Thinking of him is enough to make me happy. :)

Because he's the one I truly loved.

Kevin again?

Cris still aint texting. It's really sad because I don't know if he still likes me.

He leaves me standing on a line. Confused.

Whe he acted like this when I'm already falling for him?

I thought he was better than Kevin. Well, I guess he proved me wrong.

It's okay. It's his loss anyway. It's just sad to know I made a mistake with him.

Anyways, I want to talk to Kevin again! i think I love him again.

Because of him, I can ignore my sadness for Cris.

Kevin never fails to make me happy.

Love you Kev!

Goodbye?

Is it goodbye? Let's wait and see.

Your such a dork Cris!

I don't know.

Until now Cris aint texting me. And I don't know why.

But whatever the reason is, the only optionI have is to wait.

Wait for his next text. I don't know what's gon to his head why he's acting like that.

But I trust him so yeahhh. Whatever! :))

Anyway, I talked to Kevin tonight.

I really missed him. It's just like yesterday when we last get together.

Hope it'll happen again next time. :)

Once again, he said things he knows I love to hear! Kebino! :P

MAHAL KO!

He didn't text me for 2 nights and that caused me to think negative things.

So yeah I checked my Friendster. And he left a message saying "Mahal ko."

I was surprised and happy but then it's sad to know he wasn't texting.

And I wanna know why! This is the 3rd night! Dammit!

Chris Cayzer!

Haha. Yes, I went to the concert. But not with Chris.

He was not allowed. :3

Hmm. OMG! Chris Cayzer is so effin' hot!

When he sang his first song, he's staring at me!

'Cos I'm in the front seat. Sighs. He's so dreamy...

After the concert, I approached him and asked for an autograph

he asked my name, but I didn't respond because I got nervous.

I saw him signing autographs, and he just wrote his signiture,

but when it's already my turn, he wrote a note saying "You Rock!" with matching hearts.

And I was thinking if he really did notice me! Hehe.

Hope to see him again! :D

Okay so after that, I got home.

Cris and I talked. He open something about his girlfriend

that made me a bit pissed. But in the end, he's saying he loves me more. Blah.

He started calling me "Mahal ko."

But anyways, I will never be contented and satisfied, and I will never stop getting jealous

until he finally break up with her.

So yeah...

So much update for now. Til next time! :*

He visited me!

Surprisingly and unexpectedly Cris came at our house.

I just received a text that he's right outside our house.

So yeah, it is very unexpected and I'm very happy for that.

We stayed at our Kubo together with Glenn and Maffi.

It was fun. && I'm so happy! :D

He's so sweet. :"> I love him. :*

At last.

At last. He already texted. Actually it was Glen whom he texted.

He's not angry anymore. Yeah, but I think he don't want me anymore. :/

We have our plans, we're going to watch a concert together this Saturday.

Hope it will go fine. Because whenever I'm with him, I feel awkward. Haha.

Hope it's gonna be a great night for us. :)

&& hope things will go out well for the two of us.

SAD.

We're still not okay.
There are many thoughts running through my head.
I just don't want to think too much right now.
Hoping we're gonna be okay tomorrow. Sighs.
At least I had fun playing Spirit Of The Coin with Ate Gang, Glenn, Maffi and my brothers! Hahaha!